Where Has Honesty Gone?

I've always felt like Nephi as he stated "I being born of goodly parents." Mother and Dad were (are) the best! That being said, I was always taught to be honest in what I said and did. Well, in my journey, I've found dishonesty and I'm paying for it! Not because I agreed to it, but because I can do nothing about it. Let me start at the beginning.

Bill got behind on his alimony. The amount grew and grew until I hired an attorney to help me. I was referred to him by someone I greatly respected. Thus I put my trust in him to do what was right. I think it surprised Bill that I would do something that bold, but he finally paid up and then pulled his own shocker. He wanted to change the decree and not pay the small $150 a month any longer. I didn't know you could do such a thing, but in today's world and Bill being Bill I soon became a believer.

Now after several months, correspondence sent back and forth, and court dates canceled I received a copy of a letter my attorney sent to Bill's. He stated part of my wishes which was "I would no longer seek for any more alimony," but left out the part of "if he would pay my attorney fees." Instead he added that there would be stipulations which were that he would continue to pay for as longer as we were married. That prolongs it until January of 2012. He went on to say that he knew he could win the case if I wanted to pursue it since the law stating that alimony only needed to be paid for as long as you were married never went into affect until after we were married. Besides that, it was such a small amount, and the judge would take into account that he made so much more than I since I was on disability. He was even thinking about not charging me anything more to represent me. Now me being taught to be honest in all my dealings fell for what he said whole line and sinker. I called yesterday to thank him only to find out it was all a big lie! He hadn't meant a word of it. He wasn't sure at all that he could win the case, and furthermore the extra alimony he had asked for was to pay his attorney fees! He wasn't looking out for my best interest at all. The bottom line is HE WANTS TO MAKE SURE HE GETS HIS MONEY! I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Here I had said I would settle IF Bill paid my fees and I guess he will, but it will be out of my money. Money I was really depending on and needing. I believed my own attorney and expected him to be honest with me. All I've seen through this whole journey has been dishonesty and greed. Is that what life has come too from a person who is representing me and my values? Bill always wins even when it all started because he wasn't honest with his dealing.